Growing Into a Big Girl

I had to say goodbye to my baby tonight. Abby that is... as she is no longer a baby. She is now officially a big girl.

Our tears flowed steady as we packed up her noonies (pronounced new-knees) aka pacifiers. I know I know... she is almost 5 and still used a pacifier at night ~ YIKES! But I just could not bare to take them away from her. And, I admit is was more me than her. It was like, as long as she needed those noonies, she was still my baby girl. Without them, the baby is gone...

But with her 5th birthday (Literally) around the corner, we decided last month that today would be the day. We have been counting down until today. We composed and mailed a letter to the Nooney Fairy to let her know that all the pacifiers would be ready for her collection tonight. And... that Abby would like a guitar in trade.

After we packed them up, Abby dictated a letter to this most special Fairy. She asked her to please take care of her noonies as she was almost 5 and did not need them anymore. If the Fairy wanted to take them to the Ring of Fire (Indonesia) and share them with the babies living in the orphanage, she could. The letter wrapped up with a presumptive thank you for the new guitar... hmmmmmmmmmmmmm ????

So Abby's tears dried up as she told me all the things that she can do now that she is a big girl... like play on a soccer team or basketball team and stay up a little later. All I see is a car and college and a wedding .......

How can 5 years fly by so fast? How can the tiny little 4 lb, 2 day old sweet baby that was placed in my arms (it seems like ) just yesterday be running around proclaiming her "big"ness??? I was so nervous when they placed her in my arms. She was sound asleep. I whispered in her ear and she grinned - a real smile I PROMISE- never openeing her eyes. She stole my heart that very second and it remains hers to this day!